New

New state, new town, new school, new friends, new boyfriend? Wow I'm new to this, but new to change? I don't think so. I just moved to a whole new state. It's a good thing I have a taste for adventure.

If i stay

If i stay will you stay here? If so, then this is how it's going to be. You will treat me with respect, not like a little girl. You have to remember i am a young lady now and not a five year old. i will not keep anything from you. Nor will i lie. But in return, i want you not to question or interogate me. Or think i have interior motives, because i don't. i will be an open book and work hard in school and get good grades, but you? You have to give me some freedom, a decent curfew and not give me crap about who was at the football game. Or why it took so long to get out of class. because i'm pretty sure i need longer than five minutes to get into trouble on campus. you will remember i am not my sister and make bad decisions. Because we both know i have a better head on my shoulders than that.
  So if i stay don't be an over bearing father. And let me learn from my mistakes and live my life the way i wish.

Adventure

Have you ever wanted an adventure? I want one. I'm so desperate for on I would sell my soul for it. But that doesn't happen in real life does it? I guess it just happens in books and movies. Falling for the fallen angel wanting redemption and then go on some crazy ride on the back of his motorcycle. But that doesn't happen in reality. It only happens in books and movies.
Is there anybody out there looking for something like that? I am, I want it. I want it so bad I feel like my heart is going to explode, and I don't know what to do about it. But I can't sit And do nothing. I have to find it for myself, because adventure won't find me here.

Little things

It was the little things that I saw. The way you looked when I made you mad. The way you reacted to the silliest things. And then you made mom cry. And I knew that it was over. And then when you told us you were going to move to be closer to them with or without us. I knew mom knew it was over too. I saw right through your " I'm the perfect dad" act. I knew you had your fathers bad blood and your step fathers temperament. And you wonder why I don't tell you things. It's because if I did you would warp my words like your crazy sister and make me look likethe bad guy. Just like you did to mom. But your the bad guy. The little things showed me that.

He was my light, my pride And joy. I was in the dark. Alone, scared and helpless. But he brought the sunshine into my life. I was able to breath and feel light again like a bird finding its wings. But he just clipped them like I was nothing. Like I didn't matter. I cry like a baby wanting her security blanket, wanting the safety back the constant!!! I want my security! I my constant. I have none. My father is always skipping out my mom cares so much but works more. I need someone. Anyone...please. I lost my best friend.

Impersonal

Why is it that most relationhips start out over technology? And how come that is the way couples stay in touch? Through texting or facebook or instant messaging and email! It is so impersonal! It is one thing to send a quick text like " i am here" or "just wanted to say i love you. And let you know you are on my mind." it is not that hard to pick up the phone and have a real congersation with an important person in your life. Punch in a few number and make a call hear there laugh, there voice. Even writing a letter is the sweetest old fashioned thing a person can do. When someone takes the time to write me a letter over a really long text it seems so much more sincere.
It makes me feel special to recieve a letter in the mail or tucked neatly inside my locker. It makes me feel like someone really put thought into what they wanted to tell me and that i was important enough that they sat down and wrote the damned thing. Texting is easier for short little messages. But what girl/boy wants to have a relationship where you text each other more than you talk face to face?

Turtles

Today my boyfriend Asked me to not break his heart. I told him just because i broke a few guys' hearts does not mean i will break yours. He did not believe me. What i wanted to tell him was that he is my only constant in my life. He is my home. I only hope he does not break my heart. He is my shell, with out him i will have no one to protect me from the bad, no one to shelter me from the cold and nothing to hide in when i am afraid or threatened. I am a turtle and he is my shell. I would be naked and homeless without him.

Introduction

Ok so i live in a little town within a big city. There is nothing special about it. We have an ice cream shop a grocery store and my school is known for its football. And me, well i'm just an average girl with an average life... I'm not funny or even all that cute. But for some reason my boyfriend thinks i'm the most amazing person in the world. To me i'm on a routine that is going no where. Just like this town is going no where at all.