Change

    I see it as something that is inevitable, i see it as something that haunts us through everything.
Change, it has a way of coming into our lives and turning it all upside down. We get to that bend in the road and wish we didn't have to take it. Because we know what is beyond that unwanted turn...Change.
  
    Some see it as a way to escape their past, so they constantly change. But if you constantly change, aren't you staying exactly where you have always been? Rounding on a new turn anticipating that next change? Too afraid to stay on the straight away, fearing what you can see ahead of you.

   Some see it and fear it, but they don't really understand it. They fear the unknown and their inability to control the outcome of completing the turn. They are set in their ways to the point where they are blinded by fear that comes with the change, the momentary sensation of insecurity and instability.

   I see it as a burden that holds me hostage, like an annoying neighbor change is always knocking on my door. It stalks my nightmares. Change has been my enemy for so long that it is almost like we have somehow become allies. I no longer fight it, and in return it no longer drains me of energy, although at times i can feel it feeding off of my sadness and fear, feeding into the depression and fatigue. I am no longer suprised that when i come around one bend i am immediatly confronted with another. seemingly going in circles in a hopeless charade of death, divorce, and moves. All of these thingsare tiny inconsequential differences in my life that i have been forced to overcome, and i have.
  
 Change has molded habits in me that show the psychological damages that it imposes when exposed to the insecurity and instabilty for long durations of time. Such as anxiety of being alone and paranoia of the dark, or better put what is in the dark. You can't see the the bend in the road in the dark which forces us to hesitate at simple decisions that could lead to change. Even if it is as simple of an ice cream flavor.

  Many are unaware of these psychological changes, but  once examined closer, it is seen as a simple case of fear of the unknown and the truth that lies within it.